These Things We'll Never Know

What lies beyond the horizon

Where oceans meet the sky

Not one has reached that meeting place

No matter that they try

What holds the moon high overhead?

I've heard that its gravity

What if her arms get tired and

She drop that moon on me?

What if the stars stop twinkling

Just quit their shining bright

How would the ships then navigate

If stars turned off their light

What if the sun just dissappeared

No longer was in sight?

Nor mortal would survive for long

Lost in eternal night

Who was the one who chose decor

Of colours that we see

The blue of sky, the gold of sun

The green of leafed out tree?

Who planned a river's journey

And why do strong winds blow

Who told each bird what song to sing

These thing we'll never know

These are the very questions that

Have always perplexed man

Only one has all the answers

Our Creator with his plans...

Soleil

The Black Holes Of Renewal

When we need to find our energy and source, the place to look is in the darkness. It is in the black holes that the energy of creation lives. Wheather we are speaking of the universe or of an individual, darkness is the source of life.

When facing emotional despair, hopelessness or physical anguish, going into the darkness helps us to find our self and renew our life. It is in the nothingness that we can stop and find peace and answers. When we see our true potential, we can then create ourselves anew. We can become like a blank canvas and begin the act of creation out of a darkness.

If we hold a piece of paper with a black dot on it and ask people what they see, many will say a black dot and some will answer correctly, a piece of paper with a dot on it. We can decide to focus on the darkness or use it to appreciate that our life contains light too. We would never appreciate the light if we didn't have the darkness.

Dont be afraid of the darkness. Let the Director show us the way. Go inside and discover our own black hole, and emerge with new energy and the true light of awareness. Let the tomb become a womb.

The cave we fear to enter, holds the treasure we seek. Spend some time in the dark today...

Soleil.

Looking Through The Window

All alone and looking through the window at the outside world this evening, was like watching a life stories being played slowly on an old video player....events throughout life being shown one after another on a life's screen. Some of the pictures came out very vague and stained...some blotched by love hurt, some came out shaky and some just stood still againts the time.....

And suddenly I missed you Angel......I do...

Soleil

Hole In The Heart ( The Missing Puzzle)

This past few days, I became very teary over small things. Last nite I was outside my mum's house all alone against the quietness of the nite. Looked up at the bright shining moon in the sky, the few stars that blinked, I smiled to the wonder of God and then felt tears came rolling down my cheeks. I became malancholic.....missing, longing, loving, hating, those feeling stabbed deep and created a hole in my heart that it bled....the blood came as tears down my cheeks.....and I felt that I was falling....and falling and falling......

So I would like to thank someone somewhere on this planet, who is always there to catch my fall, who will make me smile when am feeling sad, who will tell me over and over again not to let anyone hurt my feeling, who forever said life will be wonderful, who always has something good to say to others......I thank you Angel of God who is always there looking over me, who gives love without failing......

When I felt this way, I remember someone somewhere who wrote:

"When you are feeling alone like no one cares, remember that....every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep. At least fifteen people in this world love you. The only reason someone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you. There are at least two people in this world that would die for you. You mean the world to someone. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look. Always remember the compliments you've received.Forget the rude remarks. Be thankful for whatever challenges you'll get coz this makes you a better and stronger person"

I think there are some truth in the saying......I want to believe it is SO....

Thank you Angel......your name is written in my heart and you are the missing puzzle in my life.

Soleil

Being Right

Indeed, this need of individuals to be right is so great that they are willing to sacrifice themselves, their relationships and even love for it.

Many people choose to be right rather than be happy. They will argue to the bitter end about the "rightness" of their thoughts and actions ( am one sometimes ). They do not care about what they are doing to the people they are arguing with.

Why do they behave this way? Are they perfect? No, few of us can claim to be that. They are simply unwilling to view their fallibility and confess to the weakness that come along with being human.

I guess when we are willing to give up being right, we will find peace and happiness ( will try my best to do so ). It is when we are ready to learn I think, that we will be right.

So I guess, if we wish to be happy and free, we have to give up having to be right all the time.

Search me.

Soleil

My Angel's Love

Ain't he the cutest boy on earth?? I just have to look deep in his eyes and know that life is worth living and there are so much happiness around that can oveshadow the sadness......
this is my life, my soul, my angel

those eyes spoke of love that touched my soul, that always brought me back to the real world whenever I felt that life was so unfair..............................................

.................and so cruel........when I thought that love was nothing but a piece of bleeding heart......

how could I not love this life, savour this love that is so innocent and so beautiful.........bless u my angel.....

Soleil

SOB n NAB

Last nite, my gurl was coughing non stop, triggered by eating chocolate rice crispies. Took inhalers, no difference...waited and waited and waited. 1.30 in the morning, she got worst and she claimed she suffered a slight SOB....so I said, "Right, let's go to the hospital".....

Checked. Lungs clear. No congestion. Been coughing 3/52....still I requested for NAB...and here she is on NAB......sleepy and tired.

and bored...................

Then off to Xray room. Need to double check lungs...coz of that stubborn cough for the last 3 weeks. Waited and waited....not long. Hospital quite empty tonite. Usually A&E department was so busy at this time of the nite...tonite I was lucky.....staffs sat around talking and discussing
Xray came clear...thank God. Love you my Angel Princess

Back home 3 am.

Soleil